Feeling Unmotivated... Day 3/90

"Procrastination is the enemy of success," they say. Today was a tough one. I'm 3 days in and I'm already feeling unmotivated. The second I fall out of my routine, it all goes to 💩. But then I remember my why, ​and I keep going... 

They say that what you do the night before will determine how your day goes today. I must not have been listening when they said that because I keep staying up extremely late and sleeping in until the last possible minute before I have to leave for work, which leaves me feeling rushed, tired, and a little lazy... okay a lot lazy. 

I started my day with an energy drink. I tried this new one I found at Walmart, but I've gotta say, Guayaki's Yerba Mate is the best (this one's my favorite).

Quick note on Yerba Mate - I'm all about getting my energy from clean, natural sources. Along with matcha and chai tea lattes, Yerba Mate tea is one of my favorite sources of energy. Guayaki's teas usually have 160mg of caffeine, which is equivalent to about 2 cups of coffee, and since the caffeine naturally comes from the tea, your energy levels will remain high and stable much longer than your average chemical-based energy drinks. The best part? The caffeine will leave your system slowly and steadily, so there is no crash!

Now, I don't usually drink more than one tea's worth of caffeine. In fact, I've never had a cup of coffee in my life - I absolutely hate the taste of it! So you know when I pull out an energy drink first thing in the morning, I am TIRED tired.

After that, I whipped up my breakfast, which consisted of scrambled eggs, cooked spinach & tomatoes, and half of an avocado, and my lunch, which was the same meal as yesterday. I also packed some fruit and a Kind bar for some healthy snacking options throughout the day.

Work was pretty average, not a lot happened, but I was in a good mood by the time I left! I knew I was hanging out with my boyfriend tonight, so I was excited and ready to make some homemade wings... until we both realized we didn't feel like cooking, haha. As we were searching through Doordash, I found it rather difficult to find paleo-ish options without paying closer to $15-20 for a piece of meat wrapped in lettuce with a side of more lettuce. 30 minutes later, we realized we still wanted wings, so we ordered 32 wings from It's Just Wings (I highly recommend this delivery-only restaurant). This is where my laziness really started to take over.

​The ingrained habit of my eyes making the decisions for my stomach led me to ordering 16 buffalo wings to eat all by myself. I also somehow convinced myself that wings were actually a pretty healthy option, and I would totally make a homemade side salad to get some veggies in the mix. I can tell you now that both of those statements are untrue. I ate 11 of those deliciously greasy wings and 0 of the vegetables in my fridge! As you can imagine, this put me into a bit of a food coma. My body adjusts pretty quickly to new diets and workout routines, so after eating extremely clean and healthy the last 2 days, my body felt this right away.

After dinner, we laid on the ground finding ways to make each other laugh for over an hour :) Then, I let procrastination continue to find its way into my evening plans and make hours go by as I sat on the couch watching YouTube videos. I planned to go to bed at 10 PM tonight, thinking, "Today's the day! Today is the day I get back to my early to bed, early to rise routine!" As the clock struck 9:30, I realized the short-term pleasure of watching Dancing with the Stars highlights, which is a show I haven't watched for 7+ years, was wayyyy better than the long-term satisfaction of building a productive routine that would help me achieve my life-long goals.

Then, something hit me. I thought about this blog... the one you're reading right now. I thought, regardless of what I end up doing, or not doing, for the rest of the night, I'm going to have to sit down and write this blog. Do I really want to write about the many ways I let my biggest enemy take control and keep me from achieving my goals? Already?! It's day 3. THREE. You cannot give up this easily. Look at everything you've done these last few days. You have already accomplished more in 3 days than you have in years when it comes to building the life you've always wanted. Don't give up now. 

That self-reality check really got me. So, I jumped up, cut up a mango for another hour's worth of energy, and went to Blogilates' channel to find some motivation as I chomped on my all natural pre-workout snack. This beautiful goddess of a being just posted a video titled, "Unhappy and unmotivated..." I could not believe the timing. I sat there and listened to her advice, while I envisioned myself doing the workout and writing this blog. As soon as it was over, I went back to her channel and picked two 13 minute videos to exercise to. Now, I will admit that this was not my best work, as I kept going into downward dog or child's pose whenever that particular movement was lasting wayyyyy too long. But regardless of how I got there, I did it! And I am so happily sore!

Which brings me to this moment right here. If you are ever feeling unmotivated or uninspired, take a moment to think about how you will feel if you don't do that one thing that you know will bring you one step closer to achieving your goals. Instead of thinking what if I do, try thinking what if I don't. Imagining myself looking back on my life even 10 years down the road and seeing the number of times I gave up on myself and my dreams is so scary. It's heartbreaking seeing all of the opportunities I didn't take to create the life I have always dreamed of living for myself and for the people I love most. Not that I want you to act out of fear, not at all. I just want you to get real with yourself for a second because I don't want to see you look back at your life and regret all of the chances you didn't take.

You've got this. There are so many incredible things in store for you, and I cannot wait to see you achieve them :)

Thank you for being you & thank you for being here,

​Leah Jean